Letter to Ricky

Well Ricky, its been over five years since your accident.  I still hope you asked for God's forgiveness, but I will pray that he will spare you.  Its hard to see how far I have come, I am one one med for depression, one for mood swings (keeps my moods calm and stable) one for anxiety which the dr wants to see me off of in six months, so I guess I get to see her again in six months.  By then my puppies would be a year old.  They are six months old now. I forgot to tell you, Sissy passed away three or so weeks ago, I couldn't let her go on dragging herself across the floor and she had quit eating.  When I took her into the vet they gave her some morphine to take all the pain away, she still looked the same, the look in her eyes were blank.  I got me two pugs a boy and a girl.  The little boy is so sweet he is all pug-loving where the little girl is more standoffish, she is smart as the boy is, so far they have found holes in our fencing out here that even we could not find!  The boy Blu has the wide-set eyes and the "Ash" forehead.  The girl Shasta is more the typical pug, all fawn colored and a black mask.  Even Jack has fallen in love with them.  He was mad at first when they first got here but he is more for them then he was at first.  Of course he as well as Dad (thats where I live now) didn't want me to get them but even dad calls them rascals too.

You would hate it down here.  The internet is DSL and is slow.  I can't even play farmville on my pc!

Town is 15 miles one way, they do their grocery shopping one day a month and go to atleast 9 stores.  There are no jobs around here unless you wanted to work as a gas attendant, bottle counter, and various other things for Betty down at the Covered Wagon.  And from what I understand its only P/T.

I guess I came out lucky in this deal.  The Lord is really looking out for me.  He has given me enough money to do the things around this place that need doing and a little spending money.  I am keeping my bills caught up, Jack helped me with the car payment until I got on my feet again financially.

Jack also got me this new phone, its the Samsung Galaxy S Aviator.  I wish I could send you pics but I hope to see you in the afterlife.  I have to go now, its time for me to start dinner.  I love you Ricky.

Christmas

Well Ricky, its now Christmas time.  Its gonna be pretty lonely without you here.  I know you would probably have to work and would be complaining like crazy about driving in this snow we have.  You would have had to put chains on to get out of the parking lot, but at least you would have been undercover to put them on. Michelle had to have Nate put chains on for her. She has mine so I only have chains for the van. You would love the weather here, it is below freezing, and for Newberg, that is cold. We even got a bunch of snow here. So much I can't even get my van open it is frozen shut, let alone get it out of the driveway! 

I know this was not your plan, to many indications you were not ready yet.  But since fate has taken you, we will be spending Christmas without you here.  Its gonna be sad not to have you here to put the kids toys together like you always did. You always did have a funny way of putting the doll houses and cars together for us.

You will be missed this Christmas.

I Miss You

Ricky,

I miss you so much. It still hurts and I think about you each and every day. I can still see you the first time we were allowed to see you. You had that shit eating grin on your face. I believe you were thinking the whole world can go to hell, you didn't care. I am taking care of all your finances for you, and socail security will be my last stop. I am going to file your taxes for you, I know you don't want the government getting one cent more then they deserve, and that is nothing. I need something from you. I need you to let me know somehow what you would want me to do with your games, systems, magazines and such. You know I certainly am not going to try to play them, I have a hard enough time with astroids and space invaders. The swords I am keeping except for the one that your sister has. I am staying up here instead of moving down south, I am afraid your sister might try the same rediculous thing, although not in the same way. I want to be here for her when she needs me, I am not ready for another loss. You know I will be ok someday, but for now I have to hide behind this wall so no one sees the hurt and emptyness I am feeling. Be assured, I will always love you and keep you in my heart.

Your Mother

Rickys Arm Pits

Dear Judicial System

Dear Judicial System,

This shit about jury duty is fucking retarded! What’s the point of taking hard working people out of their job forcing them to lose pay for being a jury on a case that they don’t give a fuck about? The whole point of it is just stupid, you should use retired senior citizens for this because they get paid the same whether they sit at home and knit or go out shopping it doesn’t matter and they can afford it.

Taking random people away from their jobs and paying them maybe $5 a day is a fucking joke, I, for one cant afford the pay hit perhaps some people can and woopie-fuckin-doo for them maybe you should get them to serve on your fucking dumbass jury instead of taking people who, for one doesn’t want to, two doesn’t care, and three cant afford to lose out the their pay from there jobs.

You government fucktards should really rethink your system because for one, your hurting several people by forcing them to take pay hits to help decide some stupid ass case they don’t care about and two your punishing people for no reason they haven’t done anything to deserve it.

Also last time I checked America’s slogan was "Land of the Free" where’s the freedom in being forced into jury duty either you go or you don’t and you pay for it with either jail time, a massive fine or both.

The word ‘free’ is defined as:

"enjoying personal liberty; not enslaved"

"enjoying civil or political liberty; self-governing"

"existing under civil liberty, as a country"

"unrestricted in opinion, choice, or action; independent."

In the dictionary, and I don’t see anything relating to it in the way the jury system works, which makes the term "Land of the Free" complete and utter bullshit. It’s not even limited to jury duty, it goes with every thing the government is involved with. Speaking of the government who claims to be ‘for the people’ cause they or you for that matter is far from being ‘for the people’ which makes that term complete bullshit as well. All in all we in America are not free, we’re slaves to the government who makes us believe were free with a shitload of promises and lies that give us hope and being stupid people we are we believe them.

It may sound like I’m pro-terrorist but I am not, I'm against terrorist and am not one myself. I am simply an American who sees the corrupted government for what it is, if only everyone did maybe it would change.

Back to the topic at hand, your god damn fucking piece of shit jury duty policy is nothing but a big steaming pile of rancid garbage, and subjecting people to its foul odor should be against the law. In this so called "Land of the Free" no one should be forced to do anything they don’t want to if they haven’t done anything wrong to deserve it. I hope all your wrong doings blow up in your god damn faces, cause you fucking deserve it!
Sincerely,

A Fucking Pissed off American

Tribute Web Site

I have created this web site for family and friends to add their tributes and thoughts of Ricky.

This web site will continue to add blogs as they are found.

http://tribute.perfectmemorials.com/ricky-dean-thornton-jr-1985-2008

Rickys Last Look

After Ricky had passed away from accidential affixation, I tried to recreate what his last look at his apartment was. The video is intense and dark in places. It is believed that Ricky was trying to make a video by himself, and in the process, something went wrong and he strangled.